KOSHISH

jab ummeedon ne dum toda, hawaaon ne rukh moda

dil ne hum se yeh kaha, ki kyun na ek koshish kar lein...

mushkilein, dikkatein toh zindagi ka hee hissa hain

Kyun na inse bhi dosti ka ek nataa, ek rishta jodein...

chalte chalte girey, ladte ladte haare toh kya

phir uth kar sambhal jaayein, aur haar se seekh lein

zindagi ek safar hai, ek jung bhi hai zindagi

har baar nayi koshish, aur bas, muskuraayein aur jee lein...

jab maayusi ke baadal chhaye, jab yun hee ghabraaye

dil ne chupke se kaha, ki phir ik baar koshish kar lein...

hausla buland kar ke, chaahtein sang kar ke,

jiyein aur jeete rahein, yeh har baar koshish kar lein..

Jeopardising it...

I'm sorry that i made you cry,

but you know that was the best I could try...

Hiding my feelings for a while,

everything i've done to make u smile............

I wish i had a heart of stone,
cuz it melts every now and then...
I've had enough with it, suffocated,
i want to breathe out again...

Please don't mind me saying I don't love you anymore,
cuz you know such has been the case before...

Shikwa

Aaj phir maut se haari zindagi,

phir apnon ko khoya maine

Woh hanste chehre, muskuraati shaklein

ik pal mein yaadein bante dekhi maine

Ladna jhagadna, roothna manaana

apnon se hee toh kiya thha maine

Kismat ne karwat kuch aisi badli

ki un lamhon ko chhinte dekha maine

Woh rehte toh shikwa bhi karte

kehte ki unhein tawajjo na di maine

Le gaye sabhi gile, sabhi shikwe

de gaye ashq, jo aankhon se lage behne...

DISTANCES

Looks like i've lost u forever, seems like you won't be back,

feels like i'll die without you, its all so dark and black...

Distances may have grown between you n me,

Its not like the old times...

Its no more about love and care anymore i see,

Egoes do kill the the love sometimes...

Looks like i've lost u forever, seems like you won't be back,

feels like i'll die without you, its all so dark and black...

why is there this burden on my heart,

that its keeps on hoping

it tries to be fine, after being torn apart

but the effort is groping...

Looks like v've lost each other, seems like we don't care

feels like u r around me, but i know that you're not there...

MAA...

maa... tu kyun lori nai sunaati,

ek arsa ho gaya soye hue...

kyun nai mujhe apne paas bulaati,

bahot waqt ho gaya, roye hue...

tu meri baaton ko bina kahe samajhti thhi,

meri pashton ko sun sun kar hansti thhi...

aaj cheekh kar bhi tujhe keh nai pata,

tu nai samjhegi, keh kar, tera dil dukhata...

woh tera ungli pakad kar scool le jaana,

apne kandhe par bitha kar jhoola jhulana...

na jaane kahaan reh gaya woh zamana,

woh mera hansna toh tera muskurana...

maa, tu kyun nai goadi mein bithati

ek arsa ho gaya hai befiqar hue

kyun nai mujhe apne paas bulati,

bahot waqt ho gaya roye hue

bahot waqt ho gaya roye hue...

A PROMISE TO KEEP...

I saw, I fell

Deep, very deep.

I believe it swells

the loneliness, i weep...

Lost my self, my pride

Couldn't see it coming, opening my eyes wide.

Being sorry for nothing,

Then apologizing for everything...

I can't look in the mirror,

My image hates me & my name.

It pities me, abuses me,

For i made it go through the same...

I realized deep down there,

Was it all worth it, was it all fair.

I looked around to see the walls of agony,

The wound grew wid a painful symphony

I hope it ends soon, & again I rise

I never would loose it, my self, my pride

No more I shall fall, no more shall i weep

Its a promise to myself, that I'll always keep...

I WISH...

It comes, i hold it , it slips,
I'm striving hard for it, its happiness...

It shines, its stuck, it flips
I wonder if it works out for me, its luck...

Its there, it abounds, then gone,
I'm dying to get it, its togetherness...

I hope i wasn't desperate as i sound,
I try to be content, but failure mounds...

I'm tired of being non-existent,
I'm sick of being unlucky...

Now i wish for my soul to seperate from dis lousy body
I wish to be free, i wish to be free...

Dilemma

I feel torn, I feel wasted
Disappointment never felt so, when I had tasted
I blame no one but my own self
Its not her fault, its destiny itself

I have somehow realized, that I'm scared to touch her
The day-dreaming's over, and the gestures deter

She may not understand, what i went through
As I'm good at pretending, and same I'll pursue

Love, if I try, I fail to define
Pretend I may, but love enshrines
Yes I feel wasted, yes I feel torn
But as long as she's there, my life's adorned...

lost

something's missing, something's wrong,
wonder i may, where i belong,
it all seems weird when i look around,
i scream out loud, but the pain abounds...

i go out on the streets, with my heart bleeding,
take out my phone and keep on reading,
the fond memories of being together,
i try to be free, but everytime i'm tethered...

i know you're not there, but still sing the songs,
my hopes are dead, this life's too long,
nothing's missing, nothing's wrong,
wonder i no more, where i belong...

ALL THAT MATTERS IS HER SMILE

she says i make her feel guilty
was i ever so imposing
she says she cant love me
was i ever so nosing

i keep silent, i keep numb
ppl may say that i m being dumb
my feelings r strong n i knw for sure
dat no matter wat, i'll not succumb

deep down inside, i wish she ws mine
hope hope i hope, n still thrs no sign
my sorrows, my silence r really worthwhile
cuz all that matters is her smile
cuz all that matters is her smile

Main... revisited

palat ke zindagi ke pannon ko jo dekha, hansta muskurata main nazar aaya...
aaj mein jeena kise kehte hain, yeh mujhe mere kal ne sikhaya...
main phir utha ek baar usi josh ke saath, toh khud ko gamon se bandhaa hua paya...
todi zanjeerein jo maine gamon ki, toh apne aks mein naya insaan nazar aaya...

Main... revisited

palat ke zindagi ke pannon ko jo dekha, hansta muskurata main nazar aaya...
aaj mein jeena kise kehte hain, yeh mujhe mere kal ne sikhaya...
main phir utha ek baar usi josh ke saath, toh khud ko gamon se bandhaa hua paya...
todi zanjeerein jo maine gamon ki, toh apne aks mein naya insaan nazar aaya...

sher-o-shayari.2

woh muskura rahe hain, dekhkar hum bhi muskura liye...

us mukuraahat mein humne dardoghum chhupa liye...

woh poochhte rahe ki baat kya ho gayi...

woh poochhte rahe ki baat kya ho gayi...

hum chup rahe, aur baat aankhon se bayaan ho gayi...

sher-o-shayari.1

koi unhein bataaye ki hum aahein bhara karte hain...
karwat badal badal raat guzara karte hain...
na chain subah na shaam mein hai,
na chain subah na shaam mein hai...
din raat unhein paane ki dua karte hain...

sher-o-shayari

aaj phir mausam udaas hai, phir tanhaayi hai

dil ne kaha, shaayad phir teri yaad aayi hai

ab toh ummeed bhi kho chuke hain tere aane ki,

yeh baat sach hai ki roothi humse khudaayi hai

a drabble f destiny

A path 2 follow, a road 2 travel.
Destination's a mystery 4 me 2 unravel...
Leave me d way i wana b,
do let go of me, plz let go of me...

u n i

a lot to say, that my heart desires...

a lot to do that love requires...

different may be my love for u,

its u only u who my heart admires...

m around the people who say that they care,

m busy with stuff i may not share...

wat if i can't have u as mine,

but still u r the one hu sets my pulses on fire

the agony

wen wud dis void fill... n i'll say m happy.
wen wud dis ordeal end... n i'll say m free.
god tke dis heart n emotions from me,
or else i'll die every moment m alive...
d loneliness, d emptiness mke me cry...
m longing to smile, m longing to smile...

my poems

Main...

kabhi ummeed ki roshni, toh kabhi tanhaayi ka andhera... mehsus karta, dekhta, bhagta, par chhoo nahin pata... is zindagi ke falsafe mein ualjh ke reh gaya ek keede sa mehsus karta, khud ko giraata sambhaalta...

main...
Apne aks ko aaine mein dekhkar sochta, ki kya mujhe khushi naseeb hogi, phir us khushi ke peechhe bhaagta, chahta ki ek baar toh usey paata...

main...
haan main, ek insaan, ek dost, ek bhai, ek beta... rota, bilakhta, tadapta ki kaash koi mera bhi hota... main, haan main...